Flowers and Pizza

Hi Ladies! You might be wondering how things are going this summer. Brad and I are having fun! We hang out, we do things, he makes me laugh. He bought me Flowers! Yes I repeat Flowers! First guy to do that since the inception of this blog. He also orders Pizza for the both of us, from the like the best pizza place on earth. We all know how much I love Pizza! I mean if this doesn’t work out, me and that pizza are just gonna elope.

So I just do have to mention that we have had sex. How’s the sex you might ask? Its intense. I find him super attractive + he’s super sweet + the sex is good. I’m screwed. He can pick me up which we tested just this past weekend. He enjoys foreplay! And he’s a very generous lover. I mean, how did I get myself into this?

So Brad is currently being awesome but as we all know, I have to play this cool. Some parts of me are obviously scared shitless that he could just decide not to be with me at any moment. Which sucks! But then I just remember that I’m a pretty cool girl, I’ll be okay if it doesn’t work out. Like I know that we can’t control these things so lets seeeeee.

It also sucks that I’m so transparent and really can’t hide my feelings. Gosh being a girl is ridiculous! I mean he buys me flowers and pizza! Blame me for liking him? Not to mention he knows I’m a dork and doesn’t tease me about it lol.

He also works with all these girls at his job who text him for work advice and life advice. I mean its not that I’m a jealous person but you know…UGH. They are his work peeps though so you know whatever. I love my co-workers so I expect that he’s pretty fond of his too.

In conclusion things are pretty good. Did I mention he bought me flowers and pizza?

Golden Rule: Have a guy buy you flowers, it makes you feel all fuzzy inside.

Tips For Guys: Buy her flowers ya dope!

 

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Brad’s Back

Hello Ladies,

Remember Brad….. Brad Paisley? Yeah so we are trying again. I know! My life is dizzying. How did this happen you may ask? Me being a weak weak woman and missing him. So you know how when you miss a guy so much, but you just totally suppress it? Or you type the “I miss you text” but not press send? Well I sent it. Then he said he missed me back, which I thought was nice and I was really happy he missed me.

Then he read my last blog and yes he reads my blog. That’s a whole other story. So yes he probably will be reading this. Intruder Alert! Lol.

He then basically replied to my blog/ explained stuff in further detail. At the end he proposed trying again and maybe going slowly. I accepted because I’m a softy and because I honestly think he’s a great guy. I think we have something but I can really only speak for my feelings. As we all know the other party may not feel the same.

As for me, I have toned my feelings way down and is just taking it slow. I don’t want to rush into anything because I’m really scared of getting hurt again. This time I’m just way more relaxed. I realize that this is out of my control and as always in a relationship you only know how you feel.

So that’s what’s happening, I’ll keep you posted on my status lol. Playing it totally aloof and totally by ear lol

Being in a relationship is hard.

Golden Rule: Maybe send the “I miss you” text sometimes, you never know what comes of it.

Tips for guys: If you think a girl is worth a second chance, give it to her.

Did I Miss Anything?

So, of course I feel like absolute poo at the moment. Brad Paisley and I had residual interactions post official break up texts. Me saying how I felt used, hurt and betrayed. Him saying that it had to be done because he couldn’t fake it / force it anymore. He also ripped me a new one and definitely touched upon some good points. Shall we dive right in?

He said that I wasn’t reading what he was saying because he insisted that I was great person and that that was not the reason for his change of heart. He said he just lost the spark and was no longer romantically interested in me. He said that was absolutely normal and that I couldn’t be mad at him for that.

For me, I just wanted to know where the spark went and when was it snuffed because I was totally unaware. There must be another reason, that he just won’t say. Which is fine, I mean that plays into me feeling more shitty but whatevs.

He also said that he has to be with someone that he is whole heatedly head over heels in love with and that wasn’t me! (ouch much?) That hurt because I was falling, and thought he was too.

Then he said, me not fully grasping what he was saying gave him confirmation that he obviously made the right decision. In other words you are horrible and I’m glad I dumped you. You know, I think I mentioned this before but guys are always so firm and sure of all they’re decisions. Like me being with him was the worse thing ever and him slamming the door on us had to happen because absolutely for sure we were wrong for each other. Like how does he know that? for sure? 100%?

Man I wish I had that firmness. Being completely confident that every decision I made in my life is the right one. Not giving a crap about anyone else but knowing that this thing has to happen and it has to happen now. It’s nuts but I guess I need some of that.

He also said I put way too much importance on having a relationship. Alright dude you are talking to a girl in her late twenties with all her friends getting married around her. Yah, this is important to me right now. Next phases in life needs to happen and all that. Not to mention that he said the words, marriage, wife and kids to me a couple times, but lets totally disregard that. Also he said that he didn’t want to be with someone who just wanted to be in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. If that was the case I would have just eloped with Tongue Ring, he definitely wanted to keep me around.

Did I miss anything? Oh yeah, him wishing me luck and is confident I’ll find the guy for me. So much confidence this guy has. He is sure I will, I however am definitely not sure I will.

So every time I bring my walls down and get comfortable, I mean real relaxed and at ease. Feeling like yeah, he’s great and we’ll just get to know each other…..  the rug gets pulled from under me. Every time that happens a little piece of me goes with the rug… where? idk?

In my eyes he just thought I wasn’t good enough for him or saw something in me that he didn’t like which is fine. I thought the world of him and I guess that’s my flaw right? Just really had high hopes in this one guys.

Needless to say I’m going on a Dating Hiatus.

Golden Rule: Don’t Fall, just don’t. It sucks

Tips For Guys: Do you need any? You guys are pretty much winning at this point.

 

 

 

Go With The Flow (Yes I’m a Hippie Now)

Hello Ladies!

I know the question on all your minds…. When is Game Of Thrones coming back? Well the answer is next year sometime so booooo! But what can we do? Nothing right? Thus we go with the flow. That’s what I’m doing in this new and interesting relationship that I’m in with country music start Brad Paisley. JK, just his nickname.

Nice Segue huh? I know thanks.

Things are going smoothly so far, at least from my perspective. Everything he does is super cute to me, but that’s what being a girl is like for the first  few months. We think everything they do is awesome lol. We see each other often which I like, IDK what he’s feeling though as I can get quite annoying which you all know. Honestly no complaints!

I’m literally just going with the flow because what else am I suppose to do right? I literally have that song “Meant To Be” by Bebe Rexha on replay. If its meant to be it’ll be……I really do like him though and can’t wait to see where it goes. Hoping its going somewhere awesome. I’m totally cool, as cool as a cucumber… in the fridge. Currently still not GF BF and that’s cool. No anxiety at all about that lol.

Remember the 50’s when you’d meet a guy in the park. Walk with him in the park 2 times, have Ice Tea on the porch twice,  he’d meet your parents and that was it. Your married! No you don’t remember it? Yeah me either I was born like 4 decades after but Grandma always did say times were more simple then.  They would call your guy your “gentleman caller” back then. So classy lol. Am I in the wrong decade?

Anyways, Optimism lol. Last time I was this optimistic was the winter Olympics and it paid off. TEAM CANADA for the win!

Golden Rule: Just go with the flow and chillout.

Tips for Guys: Keep being transparent, chicks dig it.

 

 

Chemistry

Chemistry is a mysterious beast. I super hate the fact that the one person I have the most chemistry with and the most amazing sex with, just isn’t “The Guy”.  Having the perfect chemistry with someone isn’t something you can fake or force trust me  I have tried. I am now aware that the way works is that you can’t have it all. You know that perfect list that you make with the perfect guy. Sorry to tell you honey, but he just isn’t out there. Instead you should just have a list of absolutes. Things you absolutely cannot stand and will not stand for.

My List Of Absolutes

  1. I refuse to be disrespected.
  2. I refuse to be treated like my thoughts or decisions don’t matter.
  3. I refuse to be with someone who doesn’t make me laugh
  4. I refuse to be with someone who thinks Sci-Fi is dumb. ( I just Can’t. this should be number one)
  5. I refuse to be with someone whom I don’t have chemistry with.

Will I find this Unicorn of a man. Nope I don’t think so, but lets see how my search goes. I feel like I have aged twice as fast going through these relationships and learning what I do and don`t want.

Once again I feel like giving up and maybe chilling out for the summer.

Golden Rule: Don`t compromise on your chemistry.

Rules for Guys: Try not to do anything on my absolutes list.

I’m Single Again and It Sucks

Unlike my other horror dating stories or my usual break ups, this one was my call. Though tongue ring really tried and spent a lot of time with me, i just felt something wasn’t quite right. I just thought we didn’t have enough in common and I really didn’t want to waste both our times.

Even though I pulled the plug, I still feel like shit. I literally cried one whole weekend day and am now in a very mopey mood. I just hate the thought of hurting someone. I feel bad that maybe tongue ring thought we had something and I just didn’t. Is this all my fault? Am I the weird one? Am I just not good at relationships? I don’t know. All I know is that everyone around me is magically falling in-love and getting married and I’m not.

Honestly my threshold for worry is at an all time high about being alone forever. When I worry this much I usually just roll over and take a nap. This  time I’m going to to try and remove myself from all the social pressures. If I’m going to be single forever I just am. We don’t know what life has in store and honestly I don’t care. I just don’t want to worry anymore or force anything.

I know that every time one of my friends post a cute couply photo this summer I’m going to feel it. Every time one of my friends get engaged or talk about getting engaged I’m going to feel it. I’m going to feel lonely as shit. I already am, it almost makes me regret my decision but why be with someone when you aren’t 100% feeling it, when they could be spending that time with they’re Mrs. Right.

So what will I do all summer, while everyone is off with they’re other halves? Work on me, catch up on all things TV, learn how to knit, go to the gym? I don’t know, I have a long winding single summer ahead of me. The possibilities are endless lol.

Side note; If Meghan can find her prince at 36, why can’t I? Maybe the lucky number is 36. After that I will be royally screwed. Also I’m no where close to 36 ya’ll so calm down.

Golden Rule: I Suck.

Tips for Guys: I Suck.

Status Confirmed

Happy Spring Ladies!

There has been a few developments since the last time we chatted lol. Tongue Ring made it official and has confirmed that we are indeed in a relationship. He asked me to be his GF, so it doesn’t get more official than that. I figure that maybe he didn’t want to label the relationship too quickly because past relationships were probably messed up.

In other news, we sealed the deal if you know what I mean. (wink wink). Lets just say the tongue ring was definitely an asset. Oh please date a guy with a tongue ring before you settle down if you have the chance LOL. Which most people don’t because they are already married and I am way behind the game. OMG this is going to a dark place all of a sudden.

Besides that everything is pretty normal. Went to Niagara Falls for a family getaway which was nice. I am having a late-twenties crisis which is also normal. I am dating someone again after giving up so many times in the past. Typical late-twenties stuff. Is everyone still getting married around me? YUP.

Its now random people on FB that I knew when I was like 15 and man does it suck. People who I thought would never get married…. so you know, that’s fun. I have been actively trying not to compare my life to others though, so lets see how that goes.

Golden Rule: Don’t Compare Yourself to Others!

Tips for Dudes: Make your girl knows you’re official, just so she has some peace of mind.

No Take Backs

Hey Guys, just feel like ranting today. I have sadly figured out the hard way that there are “No Take Backs” in relationships. Whatever you say or do; it’s out there and it just sticks. I have ruined a lot of relationships because of my actions and a lot of relationships were ruined by things guys have said or done to me. Right now I feel like shit and the reason is a guy. Not sure if its my fault or his but I feel like shit. Relationships are hard, especially if they are one sided.

Sometimes I think what I’m looking for just doesn’t exist anymore. I’m just looking for that thing that people write about or sing about. That thing that some of our parents had. That thing where you wanted to share your life with someone. I guess I just haven’t been fortunate enough to find it.

Will I keep looking? Honestly not sure…. trying to find something that doesn’t exist, doesn’t really make sense.

Update on Tongue-ring: We are still not a couple which I was reminded of yesterday. We are still hanging and I’m just going with the flow at this point.

No golden rule this week. If you have any advice for me, I will take it because I am out of ideas LOL.

Also can you believe what Tristan Thompson did to Khloe?! I mean if she can get cheated on, why am I even trying. That guy’s crazy. When will guys learn? Do they ever regret anything?

Rant Over.

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My Top 5 Date Ideas

Hi Ladies! These top 5 date ideas are literally just the top 5 dates that I have been on. Needless to say, this is prompted by a recent awesome date lol. So last night, tongue-ring took me to an impromptu hockey game. My first hockey game ever. Can I just say…. Its freaking cool. If you get a chance to go, please do. Even if you are not into Hockey, its just such a fun environment. Also if you have gone millions of times before and think that I am super late then…well…whatever to you too lol.

How goes it with tongue-ring you ask? Well it’s going good. According to him we aren’t a couple yet so I have to just simmer down. Still haven’t experienced the full extent of the tongue ring yet, which means I’m being a very good girl. I’ll let you know if anything crazy happens.

So lets get to the dates shall we? I have been really into lists lately, right?

  1. Drive In Movie Theater – OMG this was the funnest date ever. You are stuck in a car with a guy that you like while watching 2 kick ass movies. I highly recommend this date. Lots of talking, laughing and making out takes place.
  2. Hockey Game – Yaaaaas Queens, It was fun as hell. I wish I could have drank more but I had work the next day. It actually almost makes me wanna pay attention to sports.
  3. Casino Date – This was a super fun date because I don’t gamble ever and so it was just fun to let him teach me the ropes. Also they pump extra oxygen in there so you feel super alive, even if you are losing all your money.
  4. Snowfall Bar Date – So this one was only fun because all we did was drink. Then it snowed and it was beautiful outside. He then took me home to meet his dogs.  This was “dumped me two days before Christmas” dude. Not the nicest guy to me, but really special first date.
  5. Mexican Restaurant  – Have I ever mentioned how much I love food? Especially good Mexican food. I had only one date with this guy and wasn’t really feeling him. This date was awesome though because of the food. We literally only had nachos and sangria… but DANG was it good. If we had gotten enchiladas I probably would have married this guy. He missed out on not wanting to order more stuff lol.

I know these ideas aren’t ideal but if you have a chance to do any of them, please do!

I’m also heading to VEEEGGGAAASSS this weekend! I am so excited!!! Its going to be lit and who knows what stories I will come home with. Stay Tuned!

Golden Rule: Cherish all your dates, even when the guys turn out to be sucky. When you meet the right guy, you’ll know all the fun places to go.

Tips for Guys: Take your girl on fun dates, maybe places she hasn’t been before. She will definitely dig you a little more.