Merry Christmas everyone and Happy New Year when it comes! Christmas has been busy. My Grandpa is here to visit for a month from the sunny island of Jamaica. Like why would he come to Canada right? Who knows? He’s crazy?
Also my cousin was visiting from NYC for a few days. So I had a full house and lots of family responsibilities. This really helped with not thinking about all the losers who made 2017 kinda suck. I am currently sincerely honoring my guy break. No texting any guys, no dating websites. I am still stalking a little bit but boredom is to blame. Like for instance, the guy that dumped me two days before Christmas last year just celebrated his one year anniversary with the girl he dumped me for. Yes that’s just math and I figured they would be celebrating. But damn that just sunk in that I have been upset about this for a whole year. Thus this is the last time I will bring him up. (Unless he messages me wanting to get back together, which will never happen….kinda hoping it would though).
Anyway, my cousin from NYC told me that if I was living there, I would definitely already be with someone long term. So as of now I am seriously considering moving to NYC. At Christmas dinner I got the regular “Why aren’t you married yet?” “You are running out of time!” “Don’t you want children?” I turned it into a drinking game though. So every time someone asked me about my relationship status or about children, I had a large gulp of my wine. So Christmas was actually lit because I was wasted. Also one of my family members offered to hook me up with someone in Church. I thought that was interesting…… I’ll let you guys know how that goes. lol
I am officially looking forward to the New Year. I really want to leave all my ex’s in 2017. Guys have a way of always coming back though. I will ignore them because I want a clean slate. Dating will resume in a month or so. I am going to try better dating websites. Maybe even paid ones, which I said I would never do because love is supposed to be free. Not according to Match.com though.
So here I go again into another year still single but strangely optimistic. Going into 2018 with a positive outlook but I won’t expect too much. lol
Golden Rule: Leave the past in the past.
Tips for Guys: Once you break up with a girl let her be.
Guys I don’t know what it is about this one but it really hurt. I think he broke my heart. I wasn’t even sure I had a heart until this dude just broke it. I feel like shit all the time. My self-esteem is way down. I all of a sudden think that no one wants to be with me. He really sucks…. Like a lot. I thought I would take a risk on a single dad and like no offense to single dads but he ruined it for all of you.
I can’t figure out how you go from being a somewhat important person in someone’s life to a stranger in a day. It’s like he just turned a light switch off and I no longer existed. The reason why he doesn’t want to be with me doesn’t really make sense to me. I can’t help feeling that there is something else or most likely someone else.
Look it’s not like I can’t jump on Tinder and have another guy by tomorrow. It’s literally like I don’t want to and I don’t trust anyone anymore. It’s not like Booty Call isn’t around anymore, because he is. I know I can call him when I need some male affection but I just thought that maybe I had found a serious guy who wanted to settle down.
I was wrong yet again. I’m broken ya’ll. I need to be fixed. He dumped me well before Christmas… but here I am dragging my break up into the holiday season.
Golden Rule: Girls can be wrong…. so so wrong.
Tips for guys: No tip just a question… Is there like formal training on how to break hearts?
Relationships are tough as we all know via my past blogs. You all of a sudden have to bring another person into your world and all of their problems become your problems on top of your own problems. I like having a person that is “mine” but at the same time I need to admit that I enjoy my freedom. Ask any of my friends and they will let you know that I am super impulsive and do what I want when it comes to guys. I also have to admit that being with Picky Eater was making me somewhat miserable. I literally wrote blogs complaining about him. I realize now though that most women will take being miserable over being alone.
Hey! I get it, because that girl is me. I would rather hold on to a shitty relationship than break up with a guy and be alone. All my friends are in relationships right now while I’m out here singing sad songs like Taylor Swift after a breakup. (Love me some Tay Tay) Its literally like even toddlers are dating now, why can’t I? I have to admit that I think that being a woman in her late 20’s (don’t ask me my age snoopy) and not being in a committed relationship or has never been in one is weird. My mom literally was living with my dad when she was 20 (with children). Times have changed.
My mother who has seen all there is to see and done all there is to do, looks at me and tells me not to rush it. I think she is crazy and should be super disappointed, but she sees me go through these awful relationships and it saddens her. Needless to say she is completely on board with my guy break.
I do feel like I have a disability though, not being able to keep a man as they say. I thought I was supposed to be myself in a relationship but maybe I need to be something else. I really don’t know at this point. Guys have a clear cardboard cutout of what they want, but I literally have no idea.
In conclusion I am a hot mess which I believe I have mentioned several times, it may be the one consistent theme throughout all this. Trying to work on myself and love me more. I want an awesome relationship but I’m having trouble passing the honeymoon stage. Maybe I need to be stranded on a desert island with a handsome stranger or stranded on a mountain top with Idris Elba. That’s how people fall in love… when they have no choice. (Please go see “The Mountain Between Us” if you have time. Very good film. I have two words for you; Idris and Elba.)
Golden Rule: Lets all figure out what we actually want.
Tips For Guys: Teach me your decisiveness because I literally don’t know what I want anymore.
Hi Ladies, so things have been rough on me. My friends say I take these break ups too hard but that’s because I go into every relationship thinking this could be the one. Ummm so far it hasn’t. I find it super hard to believe that after speaking to me every day for 2 months someone can drop you like a hot potato (never liked that game anyway). So I need to forget about him and enjoy my “Guy Break”. As all of my friends in relationships complain about the things that their men do. I have nothing to complain about…. Other than the fact that I will spend eternity alone, but no big deal.
I have said it before but it’s hard for me to let go of stuff but this one I have to throw into the ocean just like Old Rose did with the Giant diamond at the end of Titanic. I mean if I was to message him, what would I even say?
I miss you so much. Please be with me?
I hate you and hope that you get really bad indigestion for 5 years.
Are you seeing someone else because that’s not fair.
Yeah, so all of those are pathetic so I will continue with my silence. I find that after a breakup, girls are usually sad and guys just move right along. Then like 3 months down the line is when they feel any sort of regret. By then most girls have moved on. I sincerely hope that’s the case for Picky Eater and I. Man, I gotta stop writing about this guy but I am literally scared to death to date anyone else.
I think about him so much and all the fun things we did. So many things remind me of him and yeah I hate him I think.
P.S. I saw Booty Call again. It’s still not a huge deal though.
Golden Rule: Never text a dude after a breakup, it comes off as pathetic…. I think.