Don`t F*** this Up!

Hi Ladies,

Can I be Frank with you guys? I’m in love, for the first time in a long time and can I just say it feels great. I feel like Mary Poppins floating off with her Umbrella. I feel like Cady Heron when she finally got with Aaron Samuels at the end of mean girls. You get it right? I’m Rose  pre-Jack floating off into the ocean. Anyway, yeah you get it.

So the problem I’m having is seriously trying not to mess this up lol. I want to show him all of me, including my crazy and my anxiety. But is it too much? Well if you’ve been a reader of my blog for the past two years, you know that I really value my relationships and that I’m a sweety. An anxious ovethinking sweety but a sweety non the less.

I’m constantly trying to improve me and work out my kinks on my own. I know I’m not perfect and like all girls, we have our flaws. We have things that will annoy the crap out of our significant others and that’s just the way it is. I am however trying to make myself the best girl I can be. I’m always trying to improve on who I am at work, within my family relationships and even just as a human on earth. But especially in my personal relationship, I try to be the best girlfriend all the time.

I’m dating a very confident and secure person. So I’m always trying to be the same except my anxiety gets in the way lol. I guess I have to figure out that I’m allowed to be vulnerable with him and I need to work on being comfortable with it. I also want him to be comfortable being vulnerable with me.

What can I say? I’m still a work in progress. I still have a lot to learn about love and about really sharing myself with another.

Golden Rule: Don’t F*** up a great relationship and work on being okay with your vulnerability.

Tips For Guys: Don’t F*** up a great relationship!

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Girl Angst

Hi Ladies! How goes it? How was Halloween?! I had a pretty good Halloween, I spent it with Brad. We set up his house all spooky and giggled at the disdain on toddlers faces when they figured out they’d have to brave our ghoulish setup in order to receive their candy. Some of the faces were just priceless. We even had an over-enthusiastic toddler yell PUMPKIN!! Like really loud at one of our pumpkins. It was hilarious! We ordered pizza and watched the office, it was a pretty near perfect night.

So we are 5 months into our relationship and like many women at this point, I’m feeling some angst. I call it girl angst or “gangst” for short lol. At this point, Brad knows me inside and out. He knows I’m a whiner, he knows I mildly snore when I sleep (emphasis on MILDLY), he knows I get really cranky when I don’t eat and he knows I’m a cuddle bug. Does he like these things? I hope so! It’s at the point when he pretty much knows all there is to know about me and now I start to wonder if he likes any of it. Am I the only one who thinks about this?

I mean at this point, I know quite a lot about him as well. I know most of his habits and vices. I think they are all cute or at least manageable lol. There hasn’t been anything that I would run to the hills for. But as a girl, I am still enamored by him and is still interested to know more. As I am not a guy….. I don’t know what they are thinking. I mean I could always just ask, but where’s the fun in that? lol. Just kidding, I do try to be very open with Brad about what I’m feeling and he is very keen on reciprocating or help me deal with it.

Most likely its nothing and they are just following the natural ebs and flows of our relationship. But what do I do? I overthink and write blogs about my angst! Most of the time to be completely honest, I don’t know where all this angst comes from. All I know is it sucks and I hate overthinking.

In the end, I have to remember that I can’t control anything having to do with matters of the heart and that everything happens for a reason. Wherever this relationship takes me, I’m thankful.

Please listen to Ariana Grande’s song “Thank You, Next”. It’s pretty darn good and is pretty relatable to like every girl out there.

Also, check out our pumpkin creations below. I carved a goofy pumpkin and Brad carved a poop emoji. LOL PUMPKIN!!

Golden Rule: Try to chill out, keep the angst at bay.

Tips For Guys: Girls have angst, don’t worry we try to keep it to ourselves for the most part.

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Hardest Lessons Learned

Hi Ladies, I’m just going to go on a little “why being an adult is hard” rant. Honestly the hardest lessons learned is just how much people suck…. am I right?

I don’t even think I hold people to that high of a standard. I give everyone their space, I am not a very constrictive person. Plans change and I’m cool. You want to cancel plans once or twice and I’m still cool. You don’t talk to me for 2 weeks, no big deal. We can still be Dion and Cher after those things occur. (Clueless Reference, if you haven’t seen that movie, GO watch it!)

But the minute a person’s actions show that they blatantly don’t give a shit about me as a person, that’s when I feel let down. This is especially hard when it’s a person that you’d pride yourself on going out of your way to support and help. Am I the only adult who still expects to have friends in their late 20’s? I just might be.  Let me know how your friendships are going below.

Being an Adult is hard because people forget that after doing a shitty thing to one person or persons, they can still say sorry.

In other news, Brad and I are doing great! We had our first Halloween Party outing and was the cutest Clarke Kent and Lois Lane for miles around. Atleast I thought soooo!

Golden Rule: Try to treat your friends a little better, especially now that you are a busy adult. Showing that you can still make time for them is important.

Tips For Guys:  Girls like couples costumes, so please oblige us! lol.

 

 

 

 

Our First Vacation

Hi Ladies!

Its actually been a while and of course I have to get you caught up on what’s happening. Where have I been… you may ask. Why I was away with my BF. We went on a little getaway to Montreal and Ottawa. Those are Canadian cities for all my international readers. They were lovely cities and we had so much fun. We also spent ALOT of money, but that’s for a whole other blog lol.

Our first stop was Montreal where we stayed for 4 days 3 nights. The most amazing thing about that city is the food. Really good food….. and we all know, that’s pretty much all it takes to make a good vacation. We went site seeing and did basic touristy stuff but of course doing all that stuff with Brad was super fun. Sure we got lost sometimes, frustrated and mad but we never really got mad at each other which was great. We just like sarcasm’d each other to death.

After Montreal we hit up Ottawa, Canada’s capital. I was hoping to get a glance of our prime minister but we just got a glance of his house instead or where his house should be. Can we say “Privacy Trees”. We barely saw anything. Anyway in this fair city we explored Parliament Hill and went for long walk along rivers and such. We ate at one of the fanciest restaurants I have ever been to in my  whole middle classed life. I wanted to eat everything on the menu but sadly couldn’t afford it. We spent 3 days in Ottawa and polished off our trip by going to a Cold War Bunker 30 minutes outside of Ottawa. It was very cool but also quite chilling.

Did I mention that we drove the whole way. Yup! Around 5 hours each way. Can you believe we didn’t kill each other?! We still care about each other and I’m happier now than ever that I met him. What a guy! lol. Alright I’m done gushing. Below I’ve attached a picture of our Parliament building, just so you can also experience the beauty and wonder that is Ottawa.

Golden Rule: Take a trip with Bae, you’ll learn things about each other.

Tips For Guys: Have a lot of Vacation sex with your girl. She’ll appreciate it when she gets back to her boring mundane life. lol

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Dinner and Dessert (Yes I’m Talking About Sex)

Hi Ladies,

As you know, I have been seeing my lover Brad Paisley for some time now. No not the real Brad Paisley (See Brad’s Back to catch up) but my BF that loves Brad Paisley. So I know that I have been pretty vague in regards to our sex life and that’s because I feel like I have definitely said too much in past blogs about past relationships. But I do want to express that he does connect with me and not just on an intellectual level.

With him, sex is different. I think in the past most of my relationships were focused on just sex or like at least 80% sex and that’s just because that was all my past guys had to offer. For the first time I’m experiencing sex with a partner that also cares about me as a person and respects me. Someone I’m just more that boobies and a booty to (though I’m sure he appreciates them).

It’s pretty refreshing. I finally get it all, I get dinner and dessert. I get passionate love making and then Netflix after. I get sex on the couch and cookies right after we have dinner.  I get hot make out sessions in the car and he feeds me M & M’s when we go to the movies! He even makes me tea ya’ll. Yes Tea! Is him making me tea better than sex? Umm yes! Just Kidding……definitely not!

He also met my mother, I repeat… he met the momster. She was pleasantly surprised at his height even though I fully told her he was a tall guy. She made spaghetti and meat balls and we sat casually in my living room and had dinner. We watched “Two Guns” with Denzel and Marky Mark. My mom and Brad gushed about their mutual love for Denzel! Who doesn’t love Denzel Washington right? They got on quite well. I on the other hand was a nervous wreck. I became a cross between a robot and a waiter. Brad had to quickly call me out on my weirdness and then I chilled. lol

He did drop one sauced up  spaghetti noodle on my mom’s white couch though, so he wasn’t perfect but he was pretty darn close. To which my mom responded with an “That’s Okay”. If I was the one who did that, I’m pretty sure I would have ended having to buy her a new couch but whatever.

He was being the perfect guy in front of my mom and she ate that shit up. She currently adores him and who am I kidding….. so do I.

Being in a relationship is surprisingly easy when your cute ass BF meets your mom for the first time, I thought it was going to be harder.

Golden Rule: Bring your guy over to meet your mom, if she likes him then you know you are in the clear.

Tips for Guys: Don’t drop spaghetti on a white couch, just don’t.

 

 

Happiness & Havana Nights

Hi Ladies, I’m just returning from a 5 day long hiatus from  my life. Where did I go? I went to Cuba and it was beautiful. I will leave you with a stunning photo of  a bridge in the town of Mantanzas below. It was hot, the beach was stunning and the drinks were great. The food however, was not spectacular. I was basically on a 5 day long diet because the resort’s assortment of food wasn’t the best. When I traveled to Havana however, I did have the tastiest meal of the trip which consisted of Chicken, rice and beans. So simple but so delicious.

While I was there, my mother and I encountered a girl whom was having domestic violence issues with her BF that she brought on vacation with her. This poor girl literally spent an entire day drinking because of a physical altercation that she had with him the night before. She told anyone that would listen her story of domestic violence and sadness while being thoroughly intoxicated. For a whole night I was on edge and trying to help this girl. I realized I couldn’t help her when I asked her to tell the front desk the situation to see if she could maybe switch rooms or something; to which her response was “I hate him and I love him.” That’s basically when I gave up on her. Long story short she was fine and continued her trip with this guy for a whole 2 days after and even sat behind me on the plane ride back. I felt sick to my stomach to watch her go around with this guy knowing what he  had done to her and was possibly going to do to her again in the near future.

Her whole ordeal just made me realize that women must focus on their own happiness as well as their partners. In relationships, I find that I genuinely strive to make my partner happy because them being fulfilled makes me fulfilled. Nothing is better than seeing the person I care about happy especially Brad because I think he’s pretty awesome. This may be interpreted as being a people pleaser or somewhat annoying but its just the way I am in a relationship. This is fully who I am and i’m being open and honest about it? Should I change this aspect of me? Do nice girls who are devoted and value their partner’s happiness finish last? Give me some feedback below.

Brad did not come on my vacation with me and I missed him terribly while I was away. When I came back we spent a couple days together. Me trying not to think about returning to work and trying to stay in vacation mode as long as possible. Being away has made me want to do somethings differently in my life.

I want to focus on my goals and things that I want to achieve.

I want to form disciplinary habits and regulate my life more. Life is so short and I’m not exactly a kid anymore. There are things that I had hoped to achieve by now, that I still haven’t. I know I can achieve them if I focus on them. Being in Cuba; witnessing the poverty and the strife of the people there has made me appreciate my freedoms a lot more.

Golden Rule: Focus on you sometimes, try to achieve some goals and revel in the feeling of fulfillment.

Tips For Guys: Try to make your girl happy because most likely your happiness is what she is focused on.

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Brad’s Girl

Ladies! Its official, I’m Brad’s girlfriend. How did this happen? Well a long long time ago in a galaxy far far away…. no just kidding. I basically did the ” Sooooooo, its been two months, like what are we?” thing. To which he responded “You wanna be my girlfriend?” lol. I know very anti-climatic but he knew what I was getting at. He’s very intuitive that way. When most guys hear a giant “Soooooo” they usually run for the hills but not Brad. Though he usually responds first with an “Oh God”.

So yeah, what does being his girlfriend mean? It means I worry less about other women buzzing around him. (and trust me there are a few buzzers) Umm other than that nothing has really changed. We still hang out and have fun. Its awesome getting to know him because I think everything he does is either hilarious or adorable. Yes I’m still in my honeymoon phase. I’m sure he thinks I’m annoying by now because lets face it, I am.

We went to a drive in movie which you guys know from “My Top 5 Date Ideas” (Go read that post) is one of my favorites. It was super cool but there were also a lot of mosquitoes. Other than that a magical night under the stars. We made  like a little bed in his trunk. I super wanted to jump his bones but he just really wanted to watch the movie. I mean what kind of guys does that? lol.  A guy that really likes Mission Impossible, that’s who. Also my boyfriend. Yeah I’ll be saying that a lot now.

Side Note: Is Tom Cruise aging slower than the rest of us? Does Scientology have a magical fountain of youth type potion? Or is that potion actually just called money? Just some food for thought.

Anyway back to my boyfriend and I. Okay I’ll stop. Yeah we had a bumpy start but things are going pretty smoothly. Not hoping for anymore curve balls but what is life sans curve balls right?

For the first time ever I find being in a relationship is easy. Am I going to have to change the name of my blog? We’ll seeee.

Side Side Note: Beyonce and Jay Z are calling themselves The Carters now. Just thought I’d share.

Golden Rule: Date an intuitive guy if you can, it makes your “Sooooo” questions way easier.

Tips for Guys: Be Intuitive and take your girl to the drive in duh!

Whimsical Cottage Getaway

Hello Ladies!

What have I been up to you may ask? I’m just chillen and working, having fun with cutie pie Brad. So Brad Paisley’s family owns a cottage, no shocker there. He is Brad Paisley after all. This past weekend he thought it would be a good idea for us to take a little trip. It’s only two hours away but it’s good to know that I can be in a car with him for two hours. We literally just listened to music and talked and laughed. Not a bad travelling partner.

His cottage was beautiful and I had a bunch of new experiences. I rode an ATV. Not to worry Brad was at the helm. I just prayed for my life and held on tight. I drove a boat for the first time as well. I quickly realized how fun cottage life is and is hastily looking into my own cottage lol. You know once this blog takes off and I start making tons of money lol. For now my cottage dream is on hold.

Anyway, I thought it was super sweet of him to invite me up there and boy did I sure have fun. I was also ingesting at a steady pace some very delicious wine. That definitely helped me to relax and unwind. It’s was a whimsical trip.

Golden Rule: If your guy ever invites you on a cottage getaway, please do it!

Tips for Guys: Buy a cottage.

Flowers and Pizza

Hi Ladies! You might be wondering how things are going this summer. Brad and I are having fun! We hang out, we do things, he makes me laugh. He bought me Flowers! Yes I repeat Flowers! First guy to do that since the inception of this blog. He also orders Pizza for the both of us, from the like the best pizza place on earth. We all know how much I love Pizza! I mean if this doesn’t work out, me and that pizza are just gonna elope.

So I just do have to mention that we have had sex. How’s the sex you might ask? Its intense. I find him super attractive + he’s super sweet + the sex is good. I’m screwed. He can pick me up which we tested just this past weekend. He enjoys foreplay! And he’s a very generous lover. I mean, how did I get myself into this?

So Brad is currently being awesome but as we all know, I have to play this cool. Some parts of me are obviously scared shitless that he could just decide not to be with me at any moment. Which sucks! But then I just remember that I’m a pretty cool girl, I’ll be okay if it doesn’t work out. Like I know that we can’t control these things so lets seeeeee.

It also sucks that I’m so transparent and really can’t hide my feelings. Gosh being a girl is ridiculous! I mean he buys me flowers and pizza! Blame me for liking him? Not to mention he knows I’m a dork and doesn’t tease me about it lol.

He also works with all these girls at his job who text him for work advice and life advice. I mean its not that I’m a jealous person but you know…UGH. They are his work peeps though so you know whatever. I love my co-workers so I expect that he’s pretty fond of his too.

In conclusion things are pretty good. Did I mention he bought me flowers and pizza?

Golden Rule: Have a guy buy you flowers, it makes you feel all fuzzy inside.

Tips For Guys: Buy her flowers ya dope!

 

Brad’s Back

Hello Ladies,

Remember Brad….. Brad Paisley? Yeah so we are trying again. I know! My life is dizzying. How did this happen you may ask? Me being a weak weak woman and missing him. So you know how when you miss a guy so much, but you just totally suppress it? Or you type the “I miss you text” but not press send? Well I sent it. Then he said he missed me back, which I thought was nice and I was really happy he missed me.

Then he read my last blog and yes he reads my blog. That’s a whole other story. So yes he probably will be reading this. Intruder Alert! Lol.

He then basically replied to my blog/ explained stuff in further detail. At the end he proposed trying again and maybe going slowly. I accepted because I’m a softy and because I honestly think he’s a great guy. I think we have something but I can really only speak for my feelings. As we all know the other party may not feel the same.

As for me, I have toned my feelings way down and is just taking it slow. I don’t want to rush into anything because I’m really scared of getting hurt again. This time I’m just way more relaxed. I realize that this is out of my control and as always in a relationship you only know how you feel.

So that’s what’s happening, I’ll keep you posted on my status lol. Playing it totally aloof and totally by ear lol

Being in a relationship is hard.

Golden Rule: Maybe send the “I miss you” text sometimes, you never know what comes of it.

Tips for guys: If you think a girl is worth a second chance, give it to her.