Did I Miss Anything?

So, of course I feel like absolute poo at the moment. Brad Paisley and I had residual interactions post official break up texts. Me saying how I felt used, hurt and betrayed. Him saying that it had to be done because he couldn’t fake it / force it anymore. He also ripped me a new one and definitely touched upon some good points. Shall we dive right in?

He said that I wasn’t reading what he was saying because he insisted that I was great person and that that was not the reason for his change of heart. He said he just lost the spark and was no longer romantically interested in me. He said that was absolutely normal and that I couldn’t be mad at him for that.

For me, I just wanted to know where the spark went and when was it snuffed because I was totally unaware. There must be another reason, that he just won’t say. Which is fine, I mean that plays into me feeling more shitty but whatevs.

He also said that he has to be with someone that he is whole heatedly head over heels in love with and that wasn’t me! (ouch much?) That hurt because I was falling, and thought he was too.

Then he said, me not fully grasping what he was saying gave him confirmation that he obviously made the right decision. In other words you are horrible and I’m glad I dumped you. You know, I think I mentioned this before but guys are always so firm and sure of all they’re decisions. Like me being with him was the worse thing ever and him slamming the door on us had to happen because absolutely for sure we were wrong for each other. Like how does he know that? for sure? 100%?

Man I wish I had that firmness. Being completely confident that every decision I made in my life is the right one. Not giving a crap about anyone else but knowing that this thing has to happen and it has to happen now. It’s nuts but I guess I need some of that.

He also said I put way too much importance on having a relationship. Alright dude you are talking to a girl in her late twenties with all her friends getting married around her. Yah, this is important to me right now. Next phases in life needs to happen and all that. Not to mention that he said the words, marriage, wife and kids to me a couple times, but lets totally disregard that. Also he said that he didn’t want to be with someone who just wanted to be in a relationship just for the sake of being in a relationship. If that was the case I would have just eloped with Tongue Ring, he definitely wanted to keep me around.

Did I miss anything? Oh yeah, him wishing me luck and is confident I’ll find the guy for me. So much confidence this guy has. He is sure I will, I however am definitely not sure I will.

So every time I bring my walls down and get comfortable, I mean real relaxed and at ease. Feeling like yeah, he’s great and we’ll just get to know each other…..  the rug gets pulled from under me. Every time that happens a little piece of me goes with the rug… where? idk?

In my eyes he just thought I wasn’t good enough for him or saw something in me that he didn’t like which is fine. I thought the world of him and I guess that’s my flaw right? Just really had high hopes in this one guys.

Needless to say I’m going on a Dating Hiatus.

Golden Rule: Don’t Fall, just don’t. It sucks

Tips For Guys: Do you need any? You guys are pretty much winning at this point.

 

 

 

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Go With The Flow (Yes I’m a Hippie Now)

Hello Ladies!

I know the question on all your minds…. When is Game Of Thrones coming back? Well the answer is next year sometime so booooo! But what can we do? Nothing right? Thus we go with the flow. That’s what I’m doing in this new and interesting relationship that I’m in with country music start Brad Paisley. JK, just his nickname.

Nice Segue huh? I know thanks.

Things are going smoothly so far, at least from my perspective. Everything he does is super cute to me, but that’s what being a girl is like for the first  few months. We think everything they do is awesome lol. We see each other often which I like, IDK what he’s feeling though as I can get quite annoying which you all know. Honestly no complaints!

I’m literally just going with the flow because what else am I suppose to do right? I literally have that song “Meant To Be” by Bebe Rexha on replay. If its meant to be it’ll be……I really do like him though and can’t wait to see where it goes. Hoping its going somewhere awesome. I’m totally cool, as cool as a cucumber… in the fridge. Currently still not GF BF and that’s cool. No anxiety at all about that lol.

Remember the 50’s when you’d meet a guy in the park. Walk with him in the park 2 times, have Ice Tea on the porch twice,  he’d meet your parents and that was it. Your married! No you don’t remember it? Yeah me either I was born like 4 decades after but Grandma always did say times were more simple then.  They would call your guy your “gentleman caller” back then. So classy lol. Am I in the wrong decade?

Anyways, Optimism lol. Last time I was this optimistic was the winter Olympics and it paid off. TEAM CANADA for the win!

Golden Rule: Just go with the flow and chillout.

Tips for Guys: Keep being transparent, chicks dig it.

 

 

Just One Of Those Days

Is it me, or do you have those days where you second guess yourself and everything around you. Those days when you wonder if you’re worthy of love. Those days when you wonder how there are millions of people in the world who have found love and you haven’t. Like is it me? Am I just a complete Alien with Alien type tendencies. Or just like wonder, what or who you have to be to convince someone that you are worth loving. I know it sounds so introspective and emo, but am I the only one that wonders?

Maybe I should write a survey and pass it around. The title would be “Whats wrong with me?”. Multiple choice because I would never want people to write their own answers in. You might end up with way more than you bargain for. I would hand it out only to my close family and friends. Just to gather some intel. My friends are pretty honest, so I’d prepare for the worst lol.

Anyway, rant over. Gonna go have some ice cream, that always makes me feel better. I mean ice cream and love are the same thing right?

Am I Crazy?

Hi Ladies! Phew its been a dizzying few weeks for me. I broke up with someone and felt like crap for doing it, but it honestly was for the best. I thought I was going to spend the summer alone and take a dating break as per usual. I literally always say that.

Then I decided, why should I spend the summer alone? or stop trying? Never give up right? Who wants to be single right after a close friend’s wedding. All I can think abut now is trying to find my other half. Trying to find that person everything it easy with, a relationship where we don’t have to try so hard. You Know?

So I signed back up for a few dating sites. Literally within a day or two, I got a rather lengthy but sweet message from a stranger at this point. I was chatting with a few other guys but this particular guy and I hit it off. Lets call him Brad Paisley. And yes its because he loves Brad Paisley lol.

Its literally been really great! Like he makes me laugh, we like all the same things. (except for Brad Paisley but I can see him growing on me lol) We are just like meshing really well, like too well….its honestly scaring me a little bit. Like I have a good feeling about this one but I don’t want to jinx it. Or mess it up. I just want everything to happen the way its suppose to happen.

Our first date was shall I say magical? I won’t bore you with the details but it did include a romantic walk along the boardwalk and Ice-Cream lol. Our connection is palpable, at least for me it is. He says he feels it too, its almost electric. I literally want to see him and like touch him all the time. Are we making you want to throw up yet?

We aren’t like BF & GF or anything yet, but we are exclusive… so that’s a good sign. right?

Idk Am I crazy? Does this happen this quick?

Golden Rule: When something special comes along, you know right away. I thought this was a myth but it’s true.

Tips For Guys: Definitely incorporate a nice walk along the nearest boardwalk, its super romantic.  Trust me, she’ll be eating out of the palm of your hands lol.