Don`t F*** this Up!

Hi Ladies,

Can I be Frank with you guys? I’m in love, for the first time in a long time and can I just say it feels great. I feel like Mary Poppins floating off with her Umbrella. I feel like Cady Heron when she finally got with Aaron Samuels at the end of mean girls. You get it right? I’m Rose  pre-Jack floating off into the ocean. Anyway, yeah you get it.

So the problem I’m having is seriously trying not to mess this up lol. I want to show him all of me, including my crazy and my anxiety. But is it too much? Well if you’ve been a reader of my blog for the past two years, you know that I really value my relationships and that I’m a sweety. An anxious ovethinking sweety but a sweety non the less.

I’m constantly trying to improve me and work out my kinks on my own. I know I’m not perfect and like all girls, we have our flaws. We have things that will annoy the crap out of our significant others and that’s just the way it is. I am however trying to make myself the best girl I can be. I’m always trying to improve on who I am at work, within my family relationships and even just as a human on earth. But especially in my personal relationship, I try to be the best girlfriend all the time.

I’m dating a very confident and secure person. So I’m always trying to be the same except my anxiety gets in the way lol. I guess I have to figure out that I’m allowed to be vulnerable with him and I need to work on being comfortable with it. I also want him to be comfortable being vulnerable with me.

What can I say? I’m still a work in progress. I still have a lot to learn about love and about really sharing myself with another.

Golden Rule: Don’t F*** up a great relationship and work on being okay with your vulnerability.

Tips For Guys: Don’t F*** up a great relationship!

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Dinner and Dessert (Yes I’m Talking About Sex)

Hi Ladies,

As you know, I have been seeing my lover Brad Paisley for some time now. No not the real Brad Paisley (See Brad’s Back to catch up) but my BF that loves Brad Paisley. So I know that I have been pretty vague in regards to our sex life and that’s because I feel like I have definitely said too much in past blogs about past relationships. But I do want to express that he does connect with me and not just on an intellectual level.

With him, sex is different. I think in the past most of my relationships were focused on just sex or like at least 80% sex and that’s just because that was all my past guys had to offer. For the first time I’m experiencing sex with a partner that also cares about me as a person and respects me. Someone I’m just more that boobies and a booty to (though I’m sure he appreciates them).

It’s pretty refreshing. I finally get it all, I get dinner and dessert. I get passionate love making and then Netflix after. I get sex on the couch and cookies right after we have dinner.  I get hot make out sessions in the car and he feeds me M & M’s when we go to the movies! He even makes me tea ya’ll. Yes Tea! Is him making me tea better than sex? Umm yes! Just Kidding……definitely not!

He also met my mother, I repeat… he met the momster. She was pleasantly surprised at his height even though I fully told her he was a tall guy. She made spaghetti and meat balls and we sat casually in my living room and had dinner. We watched “Two Guns” with Denzel and Marky Mark. My mom and Brad gushed about their mutual love for Denzel! Who doesn’t love Denzel Washington right? They got on quite well. I on the other hand was a nervous wreck. I became a cross between a robot and a waiter. Brad had to quickly call me out on my weirdness and then I chilled. lol

He did drop one sauced up  spaghetti noodle on my mom’s white couch though, so he wasn’t perfect but he was pretty darn close. To which my mom responded with an “That’s Okay”. If I was the one who did that, I’m pretty sure I would have ended having to buy her a new couch but whatever.

He was being the perfect guy in front of my mom and she ate that shit up. She currently adores him and who am I kidding….. so do I.

Being in a relationship is surprisingly easy when your cute ass BF meets your mom for the first time, I thought it was going to be harder.

Golden Rule: Bring your guy over to meet your mom, if she likes him then you know you are in the clear.

Tips for Guys: Don’t drop spaghetti on a white couch, just don’t.